如来佛手

哈哈哈。
我的小Tyco，宝安机场邂逅事件后，我和你还没完呢。
说不定你的那么多工厂就要被我蹂躏了，你也乖乖等着被我征服吧。
真的不好意思。事情就是这么这么巧，咱们的缘分就是这样浓浓的化不开。

The Power of Mouth

Mouth is such a fabulous tool.
The words from a mouth can either contribute to a deadlock, or melting an iceberg.
You can be fabulously popular if you are both a kiss killer and capable of uttering sweet words, making the target to inebriety.
Even a mouth can be a survival tool, which can be resorted to earn money.
I am not sure if I ignore the importance of mouth everytime I am doing the communiction.
If I overlook you, mouth, I think the penalty has already been definitely enough.
Then, mouth, I would like to say, I will justifiably rely on, pay precarious attention to and enjoy the full happiness of you, dear mouth.

限时的遗忘

昨天在床上思绪了才1个小时，我便美美的进入梦想。
惊叹这怪诞的巧合的同时，发现我竟然没有overreact，没有被这大drama给琼谣到，发现自己抽身的很洒脱，丝毫没有拖泥带水的意思。
我的原则很简单：
1. 那种暧昧间接的把戏已经不适合了，我的思路很清楚，不放弃，不强求，完全不给自己提供YY惆怅的气氛。
2. target -> plan -> measures 我发现自己真的很实际，也不错，至少得到就enjoy得到，得不到我take actions还得不到，立马放弃。
3. 相信林子是no limit的，而limited是我的circle，所以...so what? life is just to proceed. no regret behind me. no despair in front me.
BTW，我发现我的action plan还是很使坏的，发现自己很有潜力的说，有梦想的孩子有果子吃。

我喜欢纠结的歌，但是我的人生会慢慢摆脱纠结的轨迹，是适应更是征服。

突如其来的drama

我要写下来，待到明日也许已无勇气记录。
宝安机场。
突如其来的重逢，假象了很久，竟然真会实现。
我的脸上除了满脸的惊讶，脑子就是空白。
虽然我是drama控，但是对于降临在自己身上的drama，真得很抱自己的欠。因为真的没有叫做经验的东西来抓住这个千载难逢的机会。
可以骂我是懦夫，我承认，但是前提是，我是理智的，在我有欲望坍塌前，我很好的守住，没有一丝的失控。
副作用是，我的心不是随和的，在海聊时我是处于劣势的，因为不公平，我的神游我的思绪，我的话不是很有逻辑，我的表现不是很有智慧。
我很想表现得很能力，很聪明，很有吸引力，但是徒然，因为不公平。
不知道这样失去的机会会造什么报应，但是千万别，我已经很受伤了。
只有在飞机起飞的那时候，假想异常完美的遭遇战，那一刻即逝而美丽的幸福。
却被无助一步步侵蚀，然后是我把你放了的决定。
甚至有想过再在深圳遇到你，决不放过的决心。
但决心只不过是心虚的安慰剂。
算了，没有感慨，也没有放弃，这段缘我就走着瞧了。

逃兵记忆追着一辈子

不止一次梦到同一个梦了。我很焦虑的回到二医去上学，身边的同学都比我小好几岁，然后想着我又要在这里待上四年时间才能出去，就像入狱一样。
其实这个梦的起源有很简单的解释，那是因为我不只做过一次逃兵。初中高中由于身体不好，逃兵变成了一种习惯，那种被动脱离集体的感觉一方面伤自尊，一方面产生极强的落寞感，烙印就着样打下了。
这种记忆会追着一辈子的，我知道。但是逃兵的icon我是不想再刻印了，我的人皮上刻的将是大红章：PASSED...多么欣快的感觉。逃兵，我是不会做了；梦魇，也请你给我走开。
Failure should only come to you as the consequence, rather than the abandonment in the course of pursuit.

Two lies lie in life

Two so-called white lies are infused into a person’s spirit development since the outset of physical growing.

One is that people are born equal, whereas the contradict truth is people are born endowed with hierarchy, no matter they allow, connive or ban the hierachy.

The other is that the inner beauty outweighs the appearance, whereas the contradict truth is we are live in the circumstances where the first positive/negative impression, what you look like will determine your destiny.

Therefore, there are the two advantages, if we possess, we can full take to build a better life without much trouble. If either of them is absent from us, we had to keep moving on with great effort and hard work. However, we are not taught so, and we recognized the unfairness until we enter into realistic society, leading us to the confusion, even despair.

The quesion aroused is that why not we can be informed of that at the early stage of life, the truth we can accept as early as possible to make us peaceful and easily tend to be satisfied. The answer is that they are two-faced. On one hand the apparently just atmosphere was hypocritically built to appease the civilian, and on the other hand, the unfairness was thoroughly utilized by them to maximize the self-interest.

What can we do? Just like the saying: If you are raped with no power to resist, why not enjoy being fucked?

Not easy to guide to simpleness

When you feel something improper, you are moving forward.Things are going tragic when I'm upgrading myself with regards to wealth and status.Although I think i deserve all the things i'v achieve or will achieve, which was hard to imagine previously, I become degraded in mood instead.I really want to turn back to the time I appreciate the simple characteritics of work and life.Two options are in front me, be richer or be simpler.I haven't decided yet. I'm poor enough or last for so long, and consuming moneys make me kinda guilty.That's the reason I intend to switch to another way of thinking in terms of wealth, which is a more sustainable and healthy way.However, I can tell how improper when I'm chasing a decent and prosperous life. I can foresee the negativeness will unconditionally encumber me a lot.Full of paradox.I'm so stupid that even now i have no conspicuous principles to direct the action and thinking.Hopefully its not the high time. Probably when I have been through sth, the conclusion will automatically fall on me.